what a day man~ My life has been so interesting haha!! Yea walking with God is ever so adventurous.. He will bring you places you've nv been.. see things you've nv seen~ I seriously cannot ever imagine my life without God and the church.. These 2 are my life's greatest gifts..

Anyway, our sub zone went to ecp for an outing after service.. haha! It was wet but fun la. Our team won!!! $40 voucher to Swensen's.. hee!! So a few of us went there after dinner for the earthquake haha! Shan't talk much la.. tired already..










HAHA! the xiao bais









cg members =)












Xiao Mao's bday..









Beloved n256..









E99~









combined force









belinda~ Wah so not shy. Nvm i like haha!









aileen to the rescue!! Tata taaaa ta tata taaaa..










Steph was so determined to save me.. I LOVE YOU!!!!









Powerpuff girls sia..









steph david sandy









I will still love you!










Steph.. i think we seriously need to do sth abt our skin haha!










ber and sandy.. While waiting for our EARTHQUAKE! Aiyo so not enthu! haha!

Ok ok stop.. wah a lot of steph's pics.. But I'm so not gonna show my geisha pic!!! NOO steph!! Haha! Keep it between us ok.. When you are feeling lousy u can always take a look at it to cheer you up haha! I'm feeling wei da.. haha!

Oh, school tmr.... quite excited la..

haha what a day man.. met weiying in the afternoon at orchard.. SHOPPING!!!!! Ok la~ In the end bought a top only.. If you know me I'm a very fussy buyer.. Very super duper.. haha! So most of the time I'd end up not buying anything =) Went for Sun's event with 93.3 after that at music dreamer live cafe.. Man she was/is good!!! I like her new album very much.. Glory to glory man..

David~ HAHA I think he looks very nice in this pic..
Pink~ Like after how many shots la.. HAHA!
Wow who's that!!! *beaming*

You know there is one kind of people I admire most-those who persevere. I think they are so courageous. We can never know what is going to happen next, nevertheless these people fight on, not even knowing if it will be in vain. That takes faith, lots of them. I love that fighting spirit!!! And not many will do that... It's like the marathon, hundreds start off but few finished the race. Of course it's easy to start, we only have to make a decision to want to do something. But I also realise to continue the race, it's not as difficult as well! You know what? Similarly, we only have to make a decision to stay on! There's power in a thought (that's what I learnt ytd). And most of the time we have liberty to choose what we want to say to ourselves. A thought can either gravitate you towards faith or fear.. And at the end of the day, it's all up to us to choose..

End of mid yr!! Happiness.. Ok la so so only actually.. No more late nights!!! No more staying home!! =) Erm that's like only for saturday and sunday..? HAHA.. and then school starts again and everything else.....Life of a student.. =)

Today! A few of us went to pluck rambutans near the school's bball courts!! LOL~ It was hilarious laaaaa.... Man should have brought my cam~ HAHA.. nvm try again on monday!! HAHA! After that xenia and minshan joined me for this combined zone event in jw church haha! They kept laughing lor. Cos Pst Aries said that "Being born into a Christian family doesn't make you a Christian.. Just like being born in an airport doesn't make you an aeroplane!" LOL~ They were at it the whole day after that.. HAHA! After that N256 came to my house for cgm.. YES! Finally can send the east and north people off.. HAHA!!

Happy happy day.. =)

Many times you have fallen
But not once you face ground
Evidence of battles on your knees
Yet you stand up strong
That is why I love you

In the stillness of the night
You stay awake
I know you have your fears
Sometimes you let them show
Yet you fight on
That is why I love you

No, don't doubt yourself
You always do the best you know how
By that alone I feel the most blessed
Happy Fathers' Day.

Love,
Your little girl always
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Going to write this in a card for him.. Am I sweet or what! HAHA! Erm.. the 3rd stanza is a little 'distorted' though..

I had a great day!!! (though it was really hard to wake up) Cos sis idy wanted me to stand in the front row of choir! =) (can be nearer to the BVs) hahaha..It was really stretching though, but it's always a joy to be singing in front of the church.. Somehow all your tiredness will disappear while singing... And during worship, God really touched me lor and tears began to swell.. When that happened you wouldn't even care who were looking or if your makeup would be smudged.. You just wanted to cling on to that precious touch.. =) hee..

*Join chc choir!!!*

Anyway it's Fathers' Day today! =) My dad wants me to stay at home to study instead.. Good right.. Well, every other day can be a Fathers' Day ma.... =) Actually it'd mean more if we celebrate it on other days.. Or for no occasion at all.. Like Vday~ =) Lovey-dovey mood now huh? Haha.. Love is in the air~~ Can you feel it?? =)

Who is that stranger walking beside me?
The one I told my fears to
Oh it seems so long ago now...
Are you still the one I used to know?

There's an emptiness between us
A gap that cannot be filled
Have we drifted so far
That nothing can bring us back?

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aileen, don't be silly~ says:
eh bro jeff...
aileen, don't be silly~ says:
i went for bv audition on tue.. didn't get in
::: jeff ::: says:
hmm....nvm la
::: jeff ::: says:
it only means u can improve more and more!
::: jeff ::: says:
the day will come, just persevere
::: jeff ::: says:
hang on
::: jeff ::: says:
dun give in, dun give up
::: jeff ::: says:
i know one day u'll be there
::: jeff ::: says:
i'm sure

Sometimes when a part of you stop believing in yourself, it's the people around you who still believe in you, that keep you moving on... Thanks friends I think I've the best cheerleaders ever! ;)

In my hiding place
I am all alone
I wanna be found by only You..

In our secret place
There's only me and You
No one can tell us what to do..

My hand in Yours
We walk ahead
Never looking back..

What a day! Went for bv audition (finally).. But I didn't get in la. The whole procedure was emotional draining.. There were butterflies in my stomach even when I was in the train on the way there.. then in the bus to suntec.. right up to the building.. then! About 5 mins before my turn I didn't feel nervous at all! Even until I enter the room and greeted the judges (sis bel and ali).. Even until I said "The song i'm going to sing is 'If I Kissed You' by Corrainne May" Ok still not nervous.. UNTIL! I started to sing.. oh my goodness lor. To start off the room was kinda small with nothing else. So when I sang my voice was so loud! So it was kinda scary to hear it actually.. I mean I didn't expect that.. Then I felt really nervous. Like every mistake would be magnified.. My voice started to quaver like I never expected it.. (At least there was sound coming out.. For the et zone people, if you remember there was once I shared my testi during one of the meetings.. I couldn't even start!!! So I just stood on stage and kept trying to make some sound.. So after a few funny noises the friction slowly got lubricated so it was fine at the end.. Oh some even thought I was crying LOL!!) Ok that was bad.. And so now it was quite an improvement I think.. Imagine singing in front of 2 of the best singers in our church.. But too bad nervous breakdown.. I even forgot my lyrics! So I paused a while and that was bad~

Wanna know their comments? (Write the good ones first =P)
-They like my attitude woo~
-Sis ali said my voice was nice when I sang the low parts =)!
-They said I enjoyed the song.. (Well I tried to 'integrate' myself into the song.. But nervous and enjoy don't seem to go together! huh?)

Ok now the bad ones..
-Too nervous
-Pitching wasn't right for some parts
-My voice was too airy
-Nasal problem

YA!!! See.. Clarinase is only good for nose.. My nasal passage is still blocked! So I must see a doctor to remove the excess mucus between my nose and my throat.. I don't know what region is that called.. And ya pitching.. Steph told me to try singing my the piano.. And ya I wanna take up vocal lessons! After my A lvl.. So much for now..

You know actually I'm not a 'vocal' person, as in I find it hard to express myself in words.. That's why I tend to pay attention to lyrics of songs which expresses what I can't.. As a young girl I was really quiet and soft-spoken so most of the time I was not involved in class discussion and stuff and I was mostly in a corner hahaha.. So I guess sometimes a part of that still manifest itself.. And so I don't really dare to speak in front of a lot of people.. If I ever do, you will start to hear my quavering voice =) So that's a part which I have to work on. I guess I've really come a long way man.. *pat myself on my head* (ok looks silly I know wahaha) And my dear friends thanks for shaping me into the person I am now and thanks for your constant encouragement and support which keep me going =) Of course if I nv been to church I guess I'd still be the same old Aileen that they used to know.. Hee.. Thank God for changing me! =)

*Still a long long long way to my dreamsss*

Ah! I was telling cai 'My life is so boring now lor..' YES!! No mood to go out cos there'll be this nagging feeling telling you to study.. So yea have been studying.. Pok: Wah you chiongster meh? NO!! That's why it takes a lot out of me to sit down and start studying.. But I have to... Not born smart what. wahahaha..














I think I need to do that more than it does...... I always wonder if our body actually burns a lot of calories when we think hard.. If that's the case I'd be more than willing to sit down the whole day doing some deep thinking.. wahah...






























Hmmmm let's see who has thicker layers of blubber...

















Can I adopt that penguin? hehe.. Hmm actually something quite freaky happened this morning.. I dreamt that someone told me "It's 10 o'clock already.." And I woke up and checked the clock and true enough it was exactly 10!! Unexplainable phenomenon huh..

*Ok off to the library* (Sounds nerdy?)

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme..
Howie Day-Collide

You know if life is all about winning, then we will all be very miserable. Cos there will always be so many so many people better than us in one way or another.. So truly the only competitor should be ourselves. I get a sense of satisfaction whenever I outdo myself, knowing that I've grown a little.. Slowly but steadily.

Talking about this, 'nothing is fair.' Yea I agree to a large extent. Say for talent time or some beauty contest or whatever competition that involves judging.. How fair can it get? There are only a handful of judges who determine the outcome to start with. Or even for examinations where there are so many markers with different standards.. How fair can it get? So my conclusion is to do your best in whatever you set your mind to do and at the end of the day, you know you have done well and deserve to give yourself a pat on your back (don't do it literally though wahaha). Oh oh oh but they don't deserve to win!!! That shouldn't be our concern. Just be happy for them. ;)

AHH this is madness! These 4 days of EMERGE were truly incredible!!! Our church went up to a totally new level!!! Stay tune, I believe this is only the beginning to something greater. Let's watch how God astounds us!!

Briefly sum up,

Day 1

I couldn't make it!!!! Cos it was my dad's bday.. Went down with the et zone to support Sun though. She was and is phenomenal! So proud of her.














If you look longer.. 3 of us look alike!!! Sisters forever ah. wahah..
















Dad and his friends.. Imagine having dinner with them.. Who are mostly in their 50s.. It was pretty interesting actually as they kept talking about politics. So most of the time I stayed quiet and ate the food. =)

Day 2

Pink had her word power challenge!














Sitted far right















Her team =) So proud of u girl! Well done~~~

This day was really gd~ Presence of God was SO strong at night.. It was like a spiritual bath for all of us. We were refreshed, renewed and transformed. Not forgetting Kelly Poon, Junyang and Taufik came to perform too! hehe.. Taufik looked real charismatic.. with the eyeliner. Wahaha.. They sang real well. Hope that Michael Buble comes next year whahaha..

Day 3

Had my 100m race.. The runners were really good!! It didn't help my morale to see them putting on their spike shoes before the race haha.. Don't know my position but i think I was 5th out of 8.. Hehe..
















Haha that guy.. LOl..

We then went down to watch TALENT TIME!!! It was really awesome. The contestants showed off the creativity and talents that God has placed in them.. Very very impressive.. I should say it was a world-class standard. Abel from my school got in third for the solo singing! That was really a manifestation of a hidden talent hahaha..
















That's N256. Cute hor? haha..

Day 4

Saved the best for the last! Yea! Bird had her spelling bee finals and she got into the TOP 2!!!!! Told you gingko nuts work!!! haha.. So proud of her! You rock birdy~














Woo.. nervousness~














Birdy in action! *Chirp*















Red yellow blue green! wahaha.. Presenting to you the Fuhuaians! whaha.. Grew up with these girls.. Look how far we've come!! Can't help but to laugh at our past LOL~















Mian qiang smile lor.. wahah.. Nvm la.. Someone was in ED HARDY sia...... LOL~

Guess who came today? Niu nai! Haha.. He actually looks better off screen. He performed with Sun there were an incredible pair.
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So many events I just can't write them all here.. But amist of all the fun we had, we had a great encounter with God. Best of both worlds! Literally? haha.. Who says being holy means you have to abstain from the type of food you eat.. the clothes you wear.. the music you listen to? The religious can't really internalize that we can love God whole-heartedly and enjoys the gifts and talents that God gave us.

Anyway how can I miss out the CHOIR!!! It was really fun serving God in such a way! Though it could get real tiring at times because each time you go on stage you can't afford not to put all your energy in.. But I felt really privileged to be inside.. We got to see thousands of handphone lights waving during niu nai and Sun's performance.. Got to see the entire Hall 8 jumping and praising God.. Yea it was just incredible.. A sight I will never forget. =)

Oh! I have the answer to Qn 3.
Someone/thing: "You never learn the difference between boiling and evaporation meh?" "aileen ah.. nv revise..."
Oh well....

Now I have another qn..
What do you get when you mix a human, mouse and goat together? =)
Do you get a human freak? mouse freak? or a goat freak?
Would you rather just dissolve it or let it live?

For me I would erm................. =)

I was wondering, who actually read my blog everytime? It's quite scary to see someone I wasn't close to link me without asking for my permission.. But anyway there's nothing much to hide.. It just makes me cringe thinking someone you don't know actually knows about you.. Haha..

I have some questions tonight.
1) Why is the switch for the water heater needs a relatively large amount of energy to press?

2) Why do they have to wrap slices of cheese in plastic which is so hard to open?? As in there are a few 'stages' to opening it.. Skill is required. Mine often ends up with a few crumbs here and there..

3) If the boiling point for water is 100 degree Celsius then how can a lake dry up? (not too hard for cp perhaps)

4) What happens if you fall into the slit of the ground after an earthquake?

5) Why is love so complicating...

6) Are all good things worth the wait?

7) How is it that you can love and yet dislike someone at the same time??

8) Why do tears form when you cry? Why do you even cry when you feel sad? Isn't there other ways to express your sadness..

Okok I shall stop here.. As you can see, there's a weird trend in my flow of thought.. From logical to illogical? From answerable to unanswerable.. So I can conclude, as I begin to think too much, things will not make sense. Hence, don't think too much. =)

You must have heard of the earthquake in Indonesia.. and the upcoming volcano as well.. Sometimes I can't help but to think that some countries can never get out of poverty.. (too absolute?) We need the cooperation of Mother Nature. Indonesia is a beautiful country actually. The people are hospitable.. And I won't mind going back again.

Anyway, yesterday I went for a funeral with my dad.. It was our first time attending such event.. It was held in Living Sanctuary Brethen Church at Hougang. When I first stepped in I felt really at home, as in it was a very homely and inviting. Maybe cos it resembled the first church that I went, with typical classrooms and a small cafeteria. The funeral was for the pastor of that church who was knocked down by a motorcycle in Indonesia during a mission trip. That reminded me of how close I was in having the same fate as her.. If I took one extra step last friday morning, I'd have been flung off far by a motorcycle. I wouldn't know what would have become of me now.. You know it's just not typical of me to be so alert on a morning to cause myself to stop in time. And the motorcycle just zoomed past me without even slowing a bit. So that was how close and I thank God for protection.

Anyway back to the funeral..
I don't know who was that actually, neither did my dad.. It was his primary school friend's pastor. Though we didn't know the pst, we couldn't help but to grieve along with them.. The whole atmosphere was solemn, with occassional whines and cries from the kids. The eulogies were touching and throughout I was trying hard to subdue myself from crying (not used to crying in front of my dad la.) From what I heard, I've learnt a thing or two. People remember you for how much you have make a difference and touch their lives, not how much you earn or achieve. And that heros are not really the leaders but the ones who push the leader up.. They remembered her as an encourager, self-sacrificing and non-judgemental. So what kind of legacy do you want to leave behind?

We then moved to Mandai Crematorium and Columbarium. It was a neat and peaceful place. More hymns and eulogies.. Then we proceeded to the viewing hall. Imagine being surrounded by people who cried and weeped.. Not a nice feeling.. At the end of the day, I was emotionally exhausted and actually slept before 1. =)

P.S: There's a reason why some parents dislike their kids to ride a motorcycle. =) Recently, my dad nearly knocked into one as well.. A friend told the 2 most dangerous vehicles on the roads are motorcycles and........ taxis. =)

One thing always intrigues me.. Why is a social worker's salary so low?? I mean relatively low.. I know the name isn't very glam like a doctor's or a lawyer's. But social workers deals with psychological needs as much as a doctor with physical needs.. Or is it to say that physical needs are more important than psychological ones? But I think it can't be compared like that cos a doctor has more responsibilities.. =) But the idea is there.. =)

Peter said something that really hit me.. cos i was complaining to him that the salary is low.. the increment is not much..... and he said sth like if you do your best in it, ppl will start coming to you.. Like if you're a road sweeper.. be the best road sweeper.. Yea and since my passion is there I don't really mind the pay, but if I become the CEO or whatever I will make sure I up the salary first thing. Wahaha. Like it's so ironic? Social workers get peanuts and yet have to brighten up people's lives.. wahhaha.. So yes, passion is a must. =) If I ever get 3 As for my A level, I think I will go take social work as well... Maybe in future the demand for social workers will increase.. hehe.. Donno to be happy or sad though ;)

*It's ok to be different*

What a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last day of the term..
Me and minshan actually sneaked out of school via the loose fence near the basketball court wahhahaah.. drama mama.. Have 2 red scratches at my back now.. wahha.. nvm it was so thrilling lor wahahha.. All of us were so not in the mood to study today.. Thank God it was only a short day.. Cos we ponned maths =) Pei minshan and zhaoying to JP.. ms actually went to pierce her ear! Nervousness wahha.. It actually felt like stapling the last time i did.. hahah..





















Sunrise outsite my window in the "Isolation Room"....
Every morning (if I manage to wake up early..) I will sit by the window and watch the sunrise while having my breakfast.. It's such a sight to behold.. Esp when the sky is red some days.. But in less than 30mins the whole sky is brightened already.. and it's time to change and go school. =)





















Yee Kiat with his new white specs!
hahaha.. I really like it a lot leh. Think it suits him very much.. Nice hor? =) Had cg meeting just now.. Man it was really good la.. The presence of God was SO strong la.. All of us were so touched by God and were crying.. I mean at that moment you will just feel that your strength is just so puny compared to God's.. that.. what you have is really nothing compared to God.. That's why we need Him.. =)

*It's ok to dream big and be laughed at*

Oh dear~ I actually forgot to set my alarm clock~ Woke up at 1030 today! So power. It was the bright light that woke me up and I was thinking "Erm.. what day izzit?" wahha.. So blur. Things like that happen once in a blue moon ya? =) Was studying for the Spelling Bee last night.. Didn't manage to get into the finals! 1400 words imagine.. I don't even know how i managed to get into the semifinals wahahha.. anyway, I wanna congratulate BIRD for getting in!!!!!!!! So watch out for her on stage!!! She ah.. gingko nut lover ah.. Her memory is power.. She's a bird but she doesn't have a bird brain! I'm a squid so forgivable =) Never good at spelling (henry should know) and memorizing.. So most of the time I don't rememeber trivial things like what clothes u wear..

Anyway, don't you think it's very boring to keep talking behind people's back? Or listen to people talk behind their backs.. I will feel bored la.. Criticise criticise criticise............. Like there's no other interesting things to talk about in this beautiful world? =) Hais.. Like what do we gain at the end of the conversation... Not edifying at all. My motto: If I have nothing nice to say, shut up. Ok still trying to adhere to that though wahah.. Help me ok? If I complain/grumble too much tell me to shut up hahaha.. I like people to correct me.. reasonably.. That's the way to grow what.. hor? =)

*It's ok to fall..*

Min min! Glad you're coping well.. Continue to stay strong k. So proud of you! =) Don't forget you still have friends who care and love you!
Hugs,
Ducky

Hey min, I feel sorry for what happened.. But I think that you're really courageous.. Never would I ever do what you did.. I know you're a strong girl and yes I believe you can make it through the rain! Just call me when you need someone to talk to. =)
Love,
Ducky

Fun filled day!! =D Met minmin like so early? to accompany her for her NUS science faculty talk.. CONGRATS once again for getting in!!! =) I wanna join you next year!!! Went to watch 'Over the Hedge' after that at Lido.. wanted to watch Da Vinci!!! But the earlier slots were sold out.. hahaha.. Over the Hedge is really cute la.. but a lot of kids ah?




















My photography skill's not bad huh? =P



















Hot right minmin? wahhaha...



















Erm ok.. lol..














Oh dear what's with that bald patch on my head? hahaha















Went to celebrate tiang's bday after that.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again! =D
(front row 2nd from left)















Wanna know what we got him? $100 Ed Hardy voucher!!! But SAD. He didn't cry..
















Together with the choir friends! =D Henry wei da.. took photo for us.. hahaha..

Dad came to fetch me and a few others.. So wei da.. As usual he kept talking on the way home.. haha.. So excited for his bday.. 1st June!! So i'm gonna miss the first night of Emerge =( Gg to a rest. at east coast.. He invited Mr Chay as well! So shy.. whaha..

*It's ok to be a sua gu*

YAY!!! We survived this arduous week!!! =D *CheErs* 2 SPAs and 2 maths tests.. Tmr's break is so timely! =D Everyone was all smilesss today...~~














That's Derek.. V *peace* He's very spontaneous one.. wahaha..














XLS.. I donno what was with that bandaged finger.. =) And no I didn't pull it!















Xenia!















I love her tapeworm!!!















Bats!!! Right before our eyes!














Stop stealing their food please!














Erm.. I'm actually not very proud of my blubber.. Yusu stop touching it.. =)

After school me linda xenia went to queensway to order class tshirt.. Very drama mama laa... Long story ah.. Leave it to yusu to tell you all.. hahaha.. Me and her ended up having our dinner at 9 at the coffeeshop near school.. Had to ken suan mei in the bus.. wahah.. so wei da right? haha... Don't say I treat you all bad ah... *grIn* Esp you-know-who.. haha..

*It's ok to walk round and round..*

Oh I just thought of this.. Ever wonder why life is like a rollercoaster ride? Sometimes it gets you feeling so high.. and the next moment it slams you right down.. At times you don't even have time to gasp for air! Let me use the analogy of a dugong/mermaid.. or rather its/her tail.. To get into another destination it/she needs to move its/her tail up and down.. Same for us, we need situations that bring us both high and low to move on in life.. So if you feel that you are constantly living in a lalaland where everything seems to float by you so smoothly then you should start questioning if you're erm actually living? hahaha..

*It's ok to feel down*

Ahhhhhhh guess what time I slept last night??? 4am! (or rather this morning) madnessss... I couldn't sleep! Cos I took an extra long nap before that.. wahha.. anyway, today is the mark of a chem prac-less life ahead.. YES! No more chemistry practicals FOREVER! =D Just regurgitated out this morning for an hour.. So during Gp after that I was kinda shagged.. as well as for the rest of the day.. So i will tend to talk nonsense.. And I mean it.. I didn't even know what was I talking esp during GP.. wahhaha.. And during bio course I was suddenly particularly interested in mouse wahhaha.. Don't blame me hor xls =D Hormonal changes.. =)

Tmr is bio prac.. Another vomiting session.. So tonight i'm gonna feed myself crazy with those notes.. and my friend actually suggested to start a bonfire after prac.. Burn all our notes wahha.. And and after school guess where I'm going?! JAMMING!!! So cool can?! My first time la.. whha.. Tiang called me ytd cos they were looking for a keyboardist.. I told him I nv play a keyboard before.. as in those chords.. But nvm there's a start to everything! =D *loOking forward*

*It's ok to express your emotions*

So many tempatations recently.. Need to guard my heart well.. God help me!!

*It's ok to say no*

Sia la.. NDP rehearsal started already.. I have this friend inside who is the flag bearer! So proud of him! Erm.. ya he told me I should feel proud cos i know 1 out of the 34 flag bearers wahah.. sia la..... Actually since young I've admired those people marching in the parade.. Like so smart.. Now I know how they choose! mostly based on experience and physical appearance.. Height BMI built.. no wonder all have the same look whaha.. Erm.. remember when I was younger.. *so embarrassing to tell* I actually sang the national anthem and recited the pledge at HOME.. with PRIDE.. lol!!! goOdness.. Gone are those days.. Ah.. I believe it's not only me! LOL.. Cmon let's admit! lol~

*It's ok to wear white and red during National day*

I tried not to look...
There was this naggy feeling inside...
But I didn't look...

I was playing "Can't help falling in love" on the piano just now.. and goodness.. My hair literally stood.

Lyrics
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you.

Shall I stay would it be a sin
If I can't help
Falling in love with you.

Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Somethings are meant to be.

Take my hand
Take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

*It's ok to make a fool out of yourself*

Aww.. didn't get to meet my fuhua clique.. cos 2/5 couldn't make it.. But then again.. I wasn't informed of the chem remedial after school which ended at ard 5:15.. thanks XLS......... haha.. Nvm, I had dinner with my bro and dad instead and we went orchard shopping.. But I ended up shopping solo cos they wanted to see the guys' stuff.. Nvm.. Better! haha. Met again at Jack's place to eat.. It's become our family tradition to go there.. Only that branch.. The one at the side of citibank.. and it's our tradition to drink the mushroom soup there.. it's like shiok. haha..Bro threw tantrum.. so went home earlier.. oh weeeellll.......

Pst phil!! He's really cool. Friday's msg was about prayer.. I was totally impacted.. Sis JL always tells us.. "prayer is not about 'God i want this and that.. God bless me with this and that..'" Prayer is communicating (DIlogue) with God by giving Him your undivided attention.. A prayer can go like this "God I know your grace is sufficient for me, I want to learn to lean on Your strength.." "God, I'm not really good in this, but I know that nothing is impossible with You" "God if You want me to do this, I know You will provide a way for me." or simply " God, there's none like You.. I love You. Really!" =)

Life with God is just... exceptional.. It's really extraordinary! Sometimes when I reached home from school, i feel so helpless.. like i can't really catch up.. So I go into my room and start to cry.. and man.... God's presence will be in the room and I will be very comforted.. and have this peace in my heart. It's quite hard to explain the feeling except when we actually experienced it first-hand... And thank God I've been passing most of my tests now.. =)

As for the BV audition, I've decided to sing other songs.. cos the previous 2 are quite difficult given my blocked nose.. which came back when i had a cold.. So I'll be singing 'There's anointing in the air' (Chorus can be found in my friendster haha) and "Turn your eyes upon Jesus" I simply love the lyrics and it's simple-yet-nice melody.. Anyway I nv really like the lyrics of 'Becos of u' cos it's not really me to be so affected by a guy to do the things the lyrics says.. Haha.. Hmm.. Mariah Carey's songs are really nice but they are like so custom-made for only Mariah.. Very singer-unfriendly hahaha.. And oh yes! Yesterday when I turned on the TV on channel 5.. Guess who I saw?!?! Yup! MICHAEL BUBLE! He was having a concert.. and man.. that killer voice.... I blast my tv, so much so that I thot he was singing to me only... wahahaha.. He sings effortlessly and so naturally.. I simply love his voice! *cheers* I can safely say I like almost all his songs! Hope he comes back to Sg again for another concert! I will get the front seat and melt there.. =P

Anyway, I got into finals for 100m.. wahaha.. quite unbelievable for some right? haha..
Me: Sorry ankle! =P

*It's ok to be laughed at.*

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Happiness!! I'm going for a shopping trip with my dad tmr! Totally sponsored! =) !!!
Indeed, a little becomes much in the Master's hands.. PTL!

Meeting up a few of my sec. sch clique for dinner before that.. =) Haven't seen them for SOo long la.. Used to crap around so much in school.. Though at that time most of us didn't exactly like the school.. The 4 metal buttons on our uni.. Morning assembly.. combined humanities..... But we enjoyed laughing at long skirts and high socks... Bullying Lack... teasing each other abt our crushes (so shy) erm basically teasing everyone about anything wahhaha.. We were good at that la. One thing about sec school, there was always some rumours going around.. haha.. Forever~ Once a week there'd be a new couple formed.. some relationship break downs.. Some confessions.. Some rejections.. wahhaa.. And since we were the pioneers, we knew more or less everyone in school and so news spread very fast. =) Looking back there's a sense of nostalgia and I know that those times can only be replayed in my memory...
Why must the grass always seem greener on the other side??

*It's ok to smile at a stranger*

Corrinne May! I'm so fond of her now! Why didn't anyone told me how nice her voice and songs are.. Haha and the lyrics as well.. Very important.. Go check them out..

Sick today.. Bio prac doesn't help at all.. But thanks minmin for encouraging me.. =) And yes I will see a dentist real soon.. =P

How I miss those smiles
I was captivated
Certainly.
It was as if the whole world
Came to a standstill..
Then I was snapped back into reality
No, stop dreaming..
Those were not meant for you..

You know, most of the time I don't have anything in my mind.. Like I seldom 'talk to myself'.. I don't think a lot in a way.. So most of the time when I'm walking my mind's really blank. Am I normal or what? haha.. And most of the time I'm in my own world! But I'm still not oblivious of what is happening around me.. So if you hear me singing to myself..... Don't poke my bubble. hahaha.. I wish I can sing everywhere I go.. and that people will just ignore me.. But people always comment... So I restrict to just humming... I also like it when people sing to themselves.. Doesn't that make the world a much pleasant place? =) Doesn't matter if it's way out of tune! As long as the person is enjoying himself and liking that moment.. Go ahead! =)

But xiao lao shu.. thanks for that encouragement.. =) You know what la. I was quite surprised actually cos people seldom tell me that..

U know there's this song that goes like this "I'm.. I'm gonna soak up the sun.. gonna tell everyone to lighten up.." (that's about all I know) Yea. Life has so much more to offer... Woo, found another "singleton" recently hahaha.. My cg member.. 20 yrs old.. Cool~~ Nv has a bf.. Yea, must enjoy our singlehood now!!! That's like only 1/4 of our lives.. for the 3/4 you're gonna be stuck with a guy! I don't mind actually, if I really love him.. But isn't singlehood so fun?? No worries about that sort of things.. So free.. I donno what's the rush to get one.. haha.. Due to limited 'good' guys? Ah no no no I think there're plenty... But girls understand that a good guy doesn't mean he's suitable for her... Right? Maybe the 'lock and key' hypothesis works in this case as well? Hee..

"Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in.."
Excerpt from "Because of you"-Kelly Clarkson
Hmmm...
Silly? Maybe..

xiao ser and weiying
















NO NO NO!! It was meant to be a joke! I was kiddingly posing in front of the cam which was timed and tested for the grp pic, so I didn't know what happened behind me and 'click' the cam went off wahhaha.. Eeyerr... Sorry ah.. haha..














Ah... here you go.. N256!!!!!!

Hais, problematic throat.. and nose.. =(
Pls don't let anything happen when audition is nearing!!!!!
Maybe I should change the songs that I chose? Plan B.. cos I can't go high with a blocked nose and sore throat! =( Any suggestion???

Felt an urge to run today during pc.. so I ran 2 rounds.. Fatal mistake! My ankle swelled a little after that.. hais.. Why so fragile.. =(

Anyway Xenia she rocks... Never fail to brighten my day in school.. I'm a fan of her tapeworm! hahaha..

I told my dad about my 'brilliant' plan about the NAFA thingy last night.. He was quite surprised haha.. but he told me to go uni first to get my 'livelihood' (the cert..) then go NAFA.. Ok ya maybe that's better.. He had dinner with Mr Chay last night at h.v and Mr Chay advised me to go overseas to study and work.. More opportunities and gain more experience.. I was thrilled at the thought but then again.. who's gg to provide the finances!

Went to the sinseh ytd for the umpteenth time due to my left ankle.. Badly swollen.. The sinseh was a Chinese lady as in really from China haha.. she was good la.. 15 mins chop chop done.. =) But of cos it was painful la but shiok type.. Ok a bit ironic.. Finally get over and done with.. Next plan is to see the dentist.. =( Phobia!

borrowed a recorder from minshan today.. recorded a few pieces in.. But when I hear.. not very nice leh. Nvm.. Small beginning.. =) Wanna compile the nicer few then make into an album! hahaha.. Stay tune! hahahaha..

Today we talked about stress management during civics and I was thinking what kind of stress do I have?? I couldn't really think of anything to say so I said "buying presents"~ Lame laa.. But it can be quite leh. Especially when it's last minute and we have a budget.. and we don't know what the person wants.. Hor Bird? haha.. For me stress normally arises when I don't have enough time to do what I ought to do.. Other than that nothing much la.. sally mentioned "piano exam" which is more of nervousness for me la.. The environment doesn't do any help.. You go into this cold room with a piano and a table and chair for the ang moh examiner.. The examiner sits behind you as you play.. There's not even a window.. Aiyo. Why like that?

Yesterday was the track events.. and I got in 2nd! wahha.. U know why? Cos I was in the 2nd heat and there were only 4 girls! hahahaha.. So there were only 12 girls in the A division running 100m.. haha.. But shiok la. I like the type of adrenaline rush when the 'bang' goes off.. wahha.. However I sort of limited my own mindset cos I thought 100m is quite far and so I was afraid to really chiong at the beginning as my stamina is not that good.. Nvm try again on 3rd June! =)

And I haven't gotten over the thought of me going for bv audition!!! Goodness.. wahhaa.. Steph is teaching me how to listen for parts.. Something which I'm really weak in.. The audition requires us to listen for parts and sing it out! Goodness.. That's my main concern la.. But nvm I'm going to do my best anyway.. =)

I seriously can't wait for 23rd Nov to come!!! =( School is seriously restricting me in so many ways.. I wanna be a counsellor/social worker next time but my friend told me i'll be poor the rest of my life haha.. Come to think of it it's true to a certain extent.. The starting pay is around 2400, but the increment is not much lor. But I like what. I've thought of becoming a doctor/nurse as well.. But the way I see Jing memorises all the names of medicines, I was so turned off haha.. However my greatest dream is to be a pianist actually.. So I'm going to continue my piano lesson after my exam.. Actually a part of me wanna go NAFA like steph.. Should I follow my heart and break away from the norm of wanting to go NUS/NTU? I'm getting excited from the thought of gg nafa la! I'll get to learn so much more about music and piano.. and singing.. aww.. Ultimate.. then i'll be so much closer to my dreamS of being a BV and a pianist! How exciting la.. I'm smiling at the thought now la. hahaha.. =) Then me and steph can go around the world to perform.. LOL.. awww... Then I can give away free tickets to my concert.. LOL! Then must really set up AFC and find a manager.. hahaha.. Okok. Ultimate.. haha.. Doesn't hurt to dream big right? =) Promise me you'll come support me ok.. wahahaha.. I promise to sign on your shirt! LOL~

I'm so excited about the audition la!!! Singing 'Because of you' - Kelly Clarkson and 'Extraodinary' =) ! Hope my bro can tolerate me =) but I don't care if he doesn't .. =) 3 more weeks! Ytd I bought this antihistamine drug to cure my permanently blocked nasal canal and today it's so much better! I can breathe 'fully'! =)

Today my dad fetched me back from expo.. and true enough like what bird 'prophesied', he talked throughout the entire journey to jurong.. So I just listened lor. He told me while he was walking in Suntec recently, he met his 20 yrs ago manger.. who went on to become the previous MP in charge of Tanah Merah.. Mr Chay sth.. Now he's the CEO of some big company and the GM of UTUC Income.. So this Mr Chay talked to my dad and they exchanged numbers.. And he asked my dad if he needed any job, he could recommend him.. This is better than striking 4D la. My dad always complains that he always meet ghosts, finally an 'angel' now.. Ok anyway, if he gets the job, he'll be working in the town council la! How exciting can that be.. then after my A level I can seek that Mr Chay for jobs as well!! =) Save all my trouble looking.. Shiokness.. I really wanna thank God for so many open doors for me! =)

And tmr!! I'll be having my 100m race.. have to travel all the way to Bedok just to run 100m!!! Aiyo haha.. but very exciting la. =)! I'm so not a long distance runner.. No stamina haha.. Small lung capacity ah.. haha..

And who says 'Life begins here..' (JJ's propaganda)
















This is the 'Isolation Room' I talked about.. PINK can hor? haha.. I will try my best to maintain it.. If really cannot I must hire u leh... My room is gone case already.. Think you also can't do anything haha.. So not C in this aspect haha..

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So exciting la!!!!!!! I'm going for the BV audition on the 23rd!!!! One step closer to my dream!! =)!!

This week has been relatively fun for me~ =)
Wednesday!! Went to celebrate alice's 19th bday.. At the Sakae!! And she treated us la! THANKSSS.. We totally rocked the whole place!! So shy.. When our grp of girls gets together.. Skin has to be thick enough.. hahaha.. We bought her this Adidas bikini set which she tried to wear on the spot.. LOL.. and.. LOL~ Ok la don't expose her.. LOL~.. Anyway, I had a really great time with u girls.. All of you totally rock my world! =) !












































So cute hor? =)

You know what messy is?
















Now you know... *shrugs*
But thankfully we have a free computer table from Courts and so my bro gave me his old table.. yay~ I really need that!!! Now I can study on an empty table.. in an empty room with only an iron board and a bed w/o bedsheet.. hehehe.. and I shall name that an Isolation Room..



















So yan dao... wiu woo weet~



















Oops.. we missed out Lucy!



















The pretty evil witch..

I love The Chronicles of Narnia!!! It's so brilliantly written.. Though it was meant for children but I really love CS Lewis' imagination and creativity!! Erm ok I know it's been out for quite some time.. but I still love to rave about it.. =P So bear with me. =)

HAha.. xls I don't think you know what I'm waiting for la.. never mention it anywhere before.. very shen shen mi mi one.. hahaha.. Anyway today what I said to sally was just joking la.. hope she doesn't take it too personally.. But really quite happy la.. 2 hours leh. haha.. also speaking up for all of you lor wahahaha.. But seriously she's a good teacher la. I am always very amazed at how much knowledge she has.. It's me la i'm such a hard student for her.. Nvm la I will apologise to her...

Anyway, sometimes people can really get into our nerves.. what I will normally do is simply to keep quiet and ignore that person.. and walk away... though i may be boiling inside.. No point arguing or fighting to see who wins.. Ya it's good to be nonchalent sometimes.. With that I-can't-be-bothered attitude.. If you really look around.. there are so many things or people that you don't agree with.. and if we are always trying so hard to prove our points.. then life will be so.. erm.. boring? cos we could have done sth more interesting.. that's why most of the time I feel so free.. Free from all these unnecessary things.. It's very impt to learn to forgive and forget.. Though sometimes it's so hard.. but once we are able to do that.. we're doing yourself so much good as well..

Next time if ever someone comes up to you and say anything bad.. we must remain in a calm composture.. and say "Hey I think you look good in that shirt!" Wahah.. though it may be a bit fake but I think that will shut that person up instantly. Hopefully.. Ok nvm just ignore me..

I wish that one day someone will come up to me and say "The wait was worth it."
Yea I've been waiting so so long... I feel silly at times... Real silly... Well, they say good things don't come easy... But they also say that all good things come to an end... Oh man.. But like I said, I don't care what they say... But I don't know what to do either! So am still the 'confused kid' that bro jeff mentioned years ago? Hmmm.. I don't know.. Some issues are not for me to decide.. I wish I can though.. ok, Sally will go 'STATE YOUR STAND CLEARLY!!!' If only life is as simple as black and white... Then there will not be any argumentative eassays to write.. and Sally can just retire into her shell... But why do I talk about her here! It's REDUNDANT! See, I've just let her down after all her hard work... Ok, I mustn't give up... I must make her proud someday so I can give her CREDIT at the end of my A lvl... She'll love it... Sorry for digressing, my main point was actually about waiting.. I think she'll just draw a thick red stroke across my page.. Ya sometimes I can get as confusing as this chunk of meaningless words........

It's thursday! Why did I enjoy myself so much today..??? Weird.. All thanks to mock fish, zy and ms! LOL.. We actually stayed back after lesson at 4 to.. SING and DANCE... Goodness.. lol~ Fish.. I hope you feel much better after that.. haha.. Don't care what they say la.. They can say whatever they wanna say.. None of our business.. You won't falter right? Saw a friend's 'nick' on msn which says "Why comment on things you haven't experienced before?" Han nor.. Know that at the end of the day... still got ME! hahaha.. But next time don't anyhow touch k.. HAHA..

Anyway... today is also a special day for a special friend..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICE!!!!!!!!!!! *grIn*
Someone actually wanted me to bring FLOWERS and CAKE and BANNER to her school!!!
Wahaha.. Ya la actually I thought of that la.. lol.. so be comforted knowing that it's the thought that counts.. LOL~
Faster get your driving license la! Then drive yourself to my house to drive me to the nearest shop to let you choose what u want.. then I buy lor LOL~ Very mean hor........ Just kidding la.. In my heart actually I love you de... =)
Anyway, thanks for bringing me so much joy and laughter! There can never be a dull moment with you around! So sexy some more.. wahaha.. K la let u win la lol..

I survived mundane monday!!! =) *cheers* Well, actually everyday is quite mundane..

Today I just realised I have a neighbour who is a teacher in jj.. We live wall-to-wall next to each other.. haha.. We always leave home at the same time and so always take the same lift.. I only found him familiar but never thought much about anything since we are only neighbours.. But when I saw him in school today.. I was like 'Oh! So it's him!' I will try to be more friendly to him the next time... Nearly crushed him this morning cos I was nearly late so I hurriedly closed the lift doors and he 'siam'ed just in time to go in.. Oh no.. lol..

Today is also the start of poly life for a lot of people.. My bro included.. Zzz have to snatch toilet with him again.. He takes ages to get ready! Goodnesss... Recently he took $100 from my mum to buy 'poly stuff'.. Turned out, he went to buy clothes and shoe.. lol.. nonsense leh.. Haha.. good excuse siaaa... And no I didn't teach him that. Haha..

I URGENTLY NEED A SECRETARY!!!

Sigh..

Madness!!!
Me and Bird got into the semi-finals for Spelling Bee! That's 700 more words added..
Sally must be so proud of me... ...~

Anyway, today!!! I had some life back!!! =) ! Spent some mad moments with the girls.. LOL~ Craziness.. We were at PCC and didn't buy any drinks cos we were 'waiting for alice'.. And ya the staff gave us some 'looks'.. and that crazy bird came up with this crazy joke.. When alice comes then we will 'bye'.. Wahaha.. LOL.. anyway I can't believe pink n bird could finish this big bag of candy mix... They are so sweet la~



















Power Ranger transformer fun ok.. Childhood toy.. haha..





















Stop acting silly leh.. Alice please...
LOL~ And next time don't make me laugh can..
Try not to la. this is meant to be a scary pic la..

Chris Tomlin- Come Home Running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Currently my favourite song.. Wish I can play it here~
Many times, we try to perform the one-man show... Only to end up with a messed up heap.. (like my room haha) Let's admit it, we are weak. But I'm comforted knowing that I can run to God my Provider.. And I'm glad He has made a promise not to leave or forsake me.. =)

At a coffeeshopp...
X: Eh Uncle, one tehsi cold!
Uncle: Ok
The next minute he came back holding a pepsi and a coke..

Hmm.. maybe I should start a countdown from today onwards? Make me excited only~~~ hahaha..

Liberation: 233 days to go

Man.. It does seem forever..

While I was lying on my bed yesterday, I received a revelation..

You know dreams, as in visions and ambitions, only live as long a time as we allow them to. And we know that anything and everything that lives, grows. So let us keep dreaming! And they will keep growing.. And before we know it, they will jump into existence right before our very eyes..

I'm starting to wonder if my bed has any special power.. hahaha.. This gives me every reason to go to bed..

Ben & Jerry's

What BnJ's flavour are you??
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Mine's "Chocolate Therapy" hahaha..

Get a free cone at BnJ's!!!
25th April (Tues) 12 to 6pm at all stores except Sentosa
Don't miss it!!!

You know sometimes I lie awake at night, filled with anticipation as well as excitement thinking of all the fun things that I'm gonna do after 29th Nov. So deprieved now haha.. And I'm so glad it's April already.. Most probably I'll go back to work at Ben n Jerry's and definitely going to hk with bro jeff and da sao! I was thinking of setting up a small booth to sell things haha.. Just for fun~ But for now, there's nothing much I can do except school stuff.. Really miss hanging out with the girls! Anyway, I found a new chill out place--the library next to my block! The building is new... The books look new... and it's not crowded. You know how irritating it can get when people talk loudly in the library? And when their hps ring with multifarious tones and melodies.. Ok they may sound nice but the library is certainly not a place to appreciate that.. Oh man.. Can't believe I'm saying all this.. HAHA.. Tell me what's wrong with me!

Ok that aside, I had this revelation recently. Let me use the analogy of balls.. You know balls, they range from a table-tennis ball to a basketball etc.. But a basketball can't say to a pingpong ball that it is better than the pp ball though they vary in size and strength and everything else. Well, superficially it may seem that the bball is better, however it completely loses its capability once you use it on a table tennis table. Each has their own game to play.
Likewise for people, I can't say that I'm better than you or vice versa cos we are all designed to 'play different games'. You play yours and I play mine.. You have strengths that I don't have and vice versa. So there's really no need to compare and always trying to be the 'better' one.. If you know what I mean..

I bring this up perhaps because in school, people are always trying to overclimb each other.. It's good in a way.. But the down side is when you start measuring your self-worth by your academic results.. Then it's not so good anymore.

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cos im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cos my heart keeps falling faster

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

-excerpts from True-Ryan Cabrera

Always playing on Class 95 and never fail to catch my attention hee..